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Since JS went to Spore...

i have been thinking alot these 2 days. And i realise, my recent life revolves around my close frens alot.

Everywhere i go and everything i do will remind me of my dear friends.

KFC will remind me of how much JY hates it and how he fall asleep after seeing its ad in cinema.

Aman Puri Ramlee Burger will remind me of how me n js n wq da bao it den went to wq's casa after it...

then we ate it while chatting 2geda throughout the whole nite.

Cinema will remind me of how were we watching movies 2geda :) It has been a long time since all of us watched movie together though :(

To be frank, i miss that kind of feeling lar.

There are too many memories are recalled back on my mind now.

They are so nostalgic and sweet to me right now...

Our gang is splitting as all of us started to head to our life goals.

But,  by fate, i believe we will have reunion again someday.

At time being, lets work hard 2geda to achieve what we want :)

vix, hc, sheena, me

We have been enduring alot of hardships 2geda...and now,i hope we still can do same 2geda in the future !

Guys. Err...aka future engineers and accountants ! :)

OKay. My frens in my gang mostly are guys. Thanks to them , i know to play L4D =P

and bobo is my sifu of L4D ><

Because of them,

I have my interesting life =]

I am so grateful and thankful for having them as my friends.

Without them, i m not who I am right now *winks*

It's too late to know i have been neglecting my frens di...

and i m so regret over ffk-ed them.

There are times i take them for granted.

I thought we still got lots of time

I thought they are always will be here

I thought it is okay to ffk la, still got nex week la.

But now

i just realise, it is not like that.

And i only realise when one of the frens has to leave us for study now...

I just realise

We don't have much time.

Truly have to appreciate every moments that we can have with our friends now.

I don wanna hv such a regret again.

I got this poem from ek...

天地之间，好友相聚              送别熟悉，迎面新境

下肚之酒，使愁更愁。            君子回头，旧景一览。

无言之际，言藏与心              千感交汇，不及所融

不知何时，能聚于此              里藏不舍，叹感于气。

散洒天下，以圆宏志。            终此之意，肩上职责

之所以然，离别尽伤              须汝明之，持之扶之。

宴席将尽，离别之刻              一心决意，无用改之

席位如常，待友聚之。            别离旧途，启程新道。

thanks for sharing it with me when i m so down....=)

I realise,

I have been neglecting my friends for weeks.

I ffk-ed them alot, especially Vickz.

Reason ?

Working and doing famine stuff lo.

Everytime they ask me to go out...

I checked my organiser and it is empty on that day.

So i said ON larh.

But it owaiz ended up either i spent my days in office, or at home doing my stuff,

or simply too tired to go out.

And once again, i ffk-ed them.

It has been weeks i didnt go out for yumcha lo.

Especially in August. Not free for every weekends.

=(

Sorry larh my friends.

Sorry.

My life will become normal again after this.

From today onwards, I'll adjust my life again.

And no more ffk. I promise ...=)

and i miss you guys badly ;(

A month ago, i posted about 30-hour Famine camp.

A month later, here i am, still talking about it ! =)

Finally, it ended ! *robust applause*

and here comes my HOLIDAY xD

And most importantly, all of our hard works paid off.

=)

 I learnt alot throughout the whole event, from the process of preparing it til running this event.

It is never easy. Never ever easy.

But, we managed to make it a success with all the commitment, co-operation and hard works from everyone of the committees, volunteers as well as campers.

Thank you !

for all of u who made a difference to my life :)

and, welcome, my 2nd sem !

I have started to work as Personal Assistant once i was done with my final exam.

Welllllll. Yea. Personal Assistant of my boss sound cool. But, the actual workload is not cool at all ==

In the beginning, i've had very easy going days... Spent my time in facebook'ing in the office, or sitting at the sofa, doing nothing but daydreaming throughout the whole day... It's quite dull and boring. Sometime, i just wonder why my boss wanna hire me...

But now, i know it already. The works are coming in one by one at the same time...Dealing with all the unfamiliar things such as applying for franchising license and business license stressed me out totally...and, at the same time, i have to be replacement teacher ( P/s: i work in tuition centre)... Life is getting harder now =(  Nevermind, it's a very good experience anyway :)

And, i have been thinking, can i really be a good teacher ?

i'm concerned and worried about it...i dunno whether my teaching method is correct or effective or not...what if it is ineffective ? Those kids' future is at stake. Sigh. I don wanna ruin all these kids' future.... that's why... i m scared...i dunno what i m doing now is correct or wrong.... i dunno how exactly should i do...i dunno...

Moreover, sometimes, all these kids are so noisy and naughty that it gonna drive me mad ! I didn't scold, didn't cane them though.. coz i don think it's the best to solve this issue...what i did is...i set rules with them and play along the rules with them. Well, they do behave better now. But, i dunno how long it can last...

What should i do ?

Sigh, I should not be a teacher...=(

Just found out, i haven't written anything about 30-hour famine of this year properly...:P

Anyone is interested in it ???

ARE U ARE U ARE  U??

COme la come la come la. JOin la JOin la Join la. Have fun together ma :)

We are part of the committeeessssss this year =)

Some friends asked me.

Why I join it ? 30 hour din eat. Gam fei?

Sorry my frens. Empty ur tummy for 30 hours cant gam fei one :) though i hope it can ...><

I join, because, i think this is what i can do to help people who in needs currently. I just do what i can do. That's all.

And, I hope more people can join it. Believe it or not. Ur lil sacrification can bring a great difference to others life :) That's the paradigm i m holding on to now. And that's why i join it .

Then they asked sumore. Y i wanna b committee leh. Cari pasal saja...><

Hmmmmmm. I wanna say that is exactly WHY i wanna be committee. If everyone oso takut pasal, hey, who gonna take the initiatives in making a change and contribute to this society ?

I just happened to be there, to be one of them who run this event. And, I'm so glad I am so in it now !

And then horh. When i ask my frens to join. Normally, the first reaction will be :: I CANNOT DONT EAT FOR 30 hours !

My friends. U know how sam fu not to eat for 30 hours. So, I'm so sure you can understand people who didnt eat more than 30 hours are even more sam fu, right ? That's why we are here, doing this, with a hope that we are able to reduce their sam-fu-ness. How about you ? =)

Then , then...some of them are hesitating now. Thinking should join or not. Yet, they worry they can't raise fund up to RM80.

Sigh... U not even start to raise the fund...how u know u cannot do it ? Never try, never know =) Just do your best and i m sure you can reach the target as long as you have the will to do it. Don't you think so? =)

What else i can talk about it...
Hmmmm. Just join it larh :)

We join it is not just for fun, but for the meaning behind the event .

Learn more about it at http://worldvision.com.my/famine2009/

We are waiting for you.

And we believe all of us got the power to change the world into a better one together.

=)

When's the last time i blogged in mandarin ah ?

Aiyar just forget about it. Just don't feel like writing anything in mandarin now.

Past few days...

i've a turbulent change in my mood as if i got the Bipolor Disorder ==

And, i learnt alot. About my friends. About myself. About my limitations. About my weaknesses.

I'm not a saint, not Lord who can grant everyone what they wish for.

I'm an attention seeker. I need attentions. I need cares. I need the feeling of being cared. I need it badly,badly.

I am not as tough as I think I am.

I am still such a baby who like to cry when problems arise. As if crying can resolve the problems. HA !

I feel helpless when there's no one beside me... Coz i m afraid of loneliness...

I need to learn to be firm in someways.

I need to learn to tolerate more.

I need to learn be more patience.

Goodness...there are alot more for me learn just to be a better human being...When can I be a better human?

I hate to hurt myself, and my close ones. But I do it quite often nowadays =( which make me feel worse.

I start to devolop eating disorder, I guess. Coz i realise my eating habit is getting more and more abnormal...

It's still under control....but i dunno how long i can control it...

I learnt not to cling on my friends too tightly coz they will leave me one day. Leave my alone here... But true friends don't =)

Strength.

This is what i need the most right now.

Be strong and move on.

It's so true.

When u always live up to others' expectation, being who they wanna u to be, u will get tired soon.

When u suppress everything, one day, u will burst out everything...

I am so tired, mentally...

Sometime, i just feel like giving up....

especially when i see no motivation of doing all the things...see no point doing all these things...

i wanna give up badly, badly.

It's hard to hold on all the times.

=(

i'm masked,apparently.

Camouflaging my heart

coz i'm not able to cast away the feelings i have now.

Befuddled.

As u guys know, Micheal Jackson passed away adi ;(

and everyone mourned for him, saying itz a great loss of him leaving the entertaiment industry.

and i am wondering

Why those people did not tell him about that while he was still alive?

When he was still alive, alot of ppl will only focus on his negative news, gossip n gossip, criticise n criticise about him like nobody business.

Now, he's gone. he reached his destination.

People only start to say '' they miz him'', ''they like him'', ''it's a waste'', ''they enjoy his music'' and so on...

Come on. If u reli think so, y don't tell him or show him ur care while he was still alive?

IF everyone say it out loud when he was still alive, give him positive encouragement while he was bearing all the stress from all over the world... perhaps, the ending might be different.

vain pot.

tell a person ur true feelings b4 it's too late...

Recently, i have realised i am being so odd, so different from others.

I don't see things like how others see it. I don't feel like how others feel.

Simply maybe because i am the weird one out there.

Most of my frens shouted :: SO CUTE !!

BUt i wanna shout :: IT IS SO UNHAPPY. Itz eyes are so empty.

Yes, it is so adorable, but at the same time, i feel its sorrow somehow.

Holy shit. Now i am being to perasan to dogs already.

When hugging all the dogs, i dunno what in others' minds. But, in my mind, i am trying to feel what it feels.

And its heart is beating so damn fast dat make me pondering is it enjoying be with us, or is it feeling pain n panic while we were carrying it?

Geez. Too many negative emotions from me and around me.

can Someone plz tell me what to do.

i just don't feel right on how am i feeling recently.

It doesn't right.

YOOHOOO PEEEEEPS !

My frens and i represented HELP to visit Beautiful Gate with people from World Vision yesterday.

Here's da report !

Date: 03/06/2009

Venue: Beautiful Gate, PJ SS2

Beautiful Gate is a special home for physically disabled people.

Present: Huici, Chee YAn, LEng keat, Yek wei

Purpose :: 1.Promote 30-hour famine as there are medias present too on the same day.  tsk tsk.

                 2. Be volunteers to help out people there.

                 3. Learn whatever we can.

While on the way to BG, we actually practiced what to answer if MEDIAS ask us Qs. hahha damn zi lian rite...

And it turned up da medias didnt and wont ask us any Q lor...hahha...

and this lil cute kid is one of the child  at BG. Though he's cute, he's very very notty too x.x

Sistas from HiCT !!

OF coz ! AH MEIII was the main character on that day. LOLx.

U know...ds was da 1st time i stood so close nex to a superstar. Syioknyaaa  >< !

Seriously nida be thankful for everyone that gave me this opportunity !

Besides. We were lil assistants of AH MEIII back then.

We passed her the souvenirs and she'll pass up all the souvenirs to the kids there :)

And all of us played game together.

It's a simple game where all of us act out the words on a paper that was distributed to us and let others guez wadz it. hahha. B4 playin the game, we adi comprised saying all of us wont tell answer coz we wanna gv da chance to the kids there. It's their BIG DAAYYY  ! We should bring joys to them instead of rampas'ing with them mar.

Then then Beautiful Gate 's art group performed lots of fanstatic dancing.

Especially the song YMCA. All of us danced 2geda Highly =P

p/s:: AH MEII jz happened to be standing in front of me niaa while dancing...ishhh...hope i am not on tv lor...coz i saw a 8tv fela was shooting us leh. DENG. PAI SEH LOR ><

ALLL of us from HELP :)

HELP US HELP U

What made me felt so happy and blissful that day were the smiles that were found on the kiddos' faces there.

It's a kind of intrinsic motivation for me to move on and on.

Do whatever i can just to help those in needs as much as possible.

I don't know how much i can help a person, but i will do my best for it.

Dont wanna care abt whether ppl will be grateful to me anot. Coz i m doin this willingly. I decide what should i and what can i do instead of letting others decide it for me v(^.<)/*

你们知道吗？ 我对着这部电脑，对着发表文章的那一面，瞪了很久，却不知道该写什么 =（

我发觉，最近我有很多写了一半，却不下文了的博文。

是啊。最近比较忙，erm, 我觉得，过得比较充实更加恰当吧 !

啊。

又不知道该继续写些什么了。

又是一篇没阅读价值的文章。

p/s::

刚刚我查到有人在Google那儿 googled 我的名字。

我可以知道那是谁吗？

还有，给我少许时间，重新整理我的思绪。

最近，我的脑又进入停滞期了。

无法继续向前走。

After wearing this black robe, i am officially a Uni student =)

yeng leh... but the next time i wear it will b during my graduation,which 3 years later...ishh...hopefully i am still alive and mentally healthy after years of tortures ><

My class had started for 3 weeks so far...start to be busy right now.
Assignment is bombarding us one by one. Sigh. It's the very start of journey yet it's not ec adi..

Bless all of us. DOn b psycho jz coz v study psychology.

Damn it. i looked so retarded. Grrrrr ;(

今天开会时候，我静静地，偷偷地留意学长们的眼睛

发觉，大家的黑眼圈都很大，很严重。

我想，2年后，我会和他们一样=（

几天前，我和两个朋友到马六甲寻食！

yaya. 我们去马六甲就只是为了吃！ 吃！ 吃！ 吃！吃！！！！

这次的马六甲一日游可说是很心血来潮的计划，很random的...

DｒＩｖｅｒ　ｏｆ　ｔｈｅ　ｄａｙ　－Vickx

Map Reader of the day - Chubx

this is ar...hahha the-one-who-kept-saying-HUNGRY larh-!! of the day =)

ohh. Sometime she helped in giving directions of the roads too. Keke.

Together - oh food-is-so-almighty hunterx =]

they hunted down all the delicious food with their adventurous spirit and maps

and and and, helpS from the local frenly strangers who are willing to stop by to give the galz directions.

their unconditional helps warmed the galz' hearts deeply =)

ermmmm 暂时先欣赏这被绿茶奶 =）

明天我再慢慢，详细的，写出我们吃了什么好吃到没得顶的食物！

stay tuned ?? 0.0

LOL !