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I have started to work as Personal Assistant once i was done with my final exam.

Welllllll. Yea. Personal Assistant of my boss sound cool. But, the actual workload is not cool at all ==

 

In the beginning, i've had very easy going days... Spent my time in facebook'ing in the office, or sitting at the sofa, doing nothing but daydreaming throughout the whole day... It's quite dull and boring. Sometime, i just wonder why my boss wanna hire me...

 

But now, i know it already. The works are coming in one by one at the same time...Dealing with all the unfamiliar things such as applying for franchising license and business license stressed me out totally...and, at the same time, i have to be replacement teacher ( P/s: i work in tuition centre)... Life is getting harder now =(  Nevermind, it's a very good experience anyway :)

And, i have been thinking, can i really be a good teacher ?

i'm concerned and worried about it...i dunno whether my teaching method is correct or effective or not...what if it is ineffective ? Those kids' future is at stake. Sigh. I don wanna ruin all these kids' future.... that's why... i m scared...i dunno what i m doing now is correct or wrong.... i dunno how exactly should i do...i dunno...

Moreover, sometimes, all these kids are so noisy and naughty that it gonna drive me mad ! I didn't scold, didn't cane them though.. coz i don think it's the best to solve this issue...what i did is...i set rules with them and play along the rules with them. Well, they do behave better now. But, i dunno how long it can last...

 

What should i do ?

Sigh, I should not be a teacher...=(

 

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Just found out, i haven't written anything about 30-hour famine of this year properly...:P

Anyone is interested in it ???

ARE U ARE U ARE  U??

 

COme la come la come la. JOin la JOin la Join la. Have fun together ma :)

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We are part of the committeeessssss this year =)

 

Some friends asked me.

Why I join it ? 30 hour din eat. Gam fei?

Sorry my frens. Empty ur tummy for 30 hours cant gam fei one :) though i hope it can ...><

I join, because, i think this is what i can do to help people who in needs currently. I just do what i can do. That's all.

And, I hope more people can join it. Believe it or not. Ur lil sacrification can bring a great difference to others life :) That's the paradigm i m holding on to now. And that's why i join it .

 

Then they asked sumore. Y i wanna b committee leh. Cari pasal saja...><

Hmmmmmm. I wanna say that is exactly WHY i wanna be committee. If everyone oso takut pasal, hey, who gonna take the initiatives in making a change and contribute to this society ?

I just happened to be there, to be one of them who run this event. And, I'm so glad I am so in it now !

 

And then horh. When i ask my frens to join. Normally, the first reaction will be :: I CANNOT DONT EAT FOR 30 hours !

My friends. U know how sam fu not to eat for 30 hours. So, I'm so sure you can understand people who didnt eat more than 30 hours are even more sam fu, right ? That's why we are here, doing this, with a hope that we are able to reduce their sam-fu-ness. How about you ? =)

 

Then , then...some of them are hesitating now. Thinking should join or not. Yet, they worry they can't raise fund up to RM80.

Sigh... U not even start to raise the fund...how u know u cannot do it ? Never try, never know =) Just do your best and i m sure you can reach the target as long as you have the will to do it. Don't you think so? =)

 

What else i can talk about it...
Hmmmm. Just join it larh :)

We join it is not just for fun, but for the meaning behind the event .

Learn more about it at http://worldvision.com.my/famine2009/

 

 

We are waiting for you.

And we believe all of us got the power to change the world into a better one together.

=)

 

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When's the last time i blogged in mandarin ah ?

Aiyar just forget about it. Just don't feel like writing anything in mandarin now.

 

Past few days...

i've a turbulent change in my mood as if i got the Bipolor Disorder ==

 

And, i learnt alot. About my friends. About myself. About my limitations. About my weaknesses.

I'm not a saint, not Lord who can grant everyone what they wish for.

I'm an attention seeker. I need attentions. I need cares. I need the feeling of being cared. I need it badly,badly.

I am not as tough as I think I am.

I am still such a baby who like to cry when problems arise. As if crying can resolve the problems. HA !

I feel helpless when there's no one beside me... Coz i m afraid of loneliness...

I need to learn to be firm in someways.

I need to learn to tolerate more.

I need to learn be more patience.

Goodness...there are alot more for me learn just to be a better human being...When can I be a better human?

I hate to hurt myself, and my close ones. But I do it quite often nowadays =( which make me feel worse.

I start to devolop eating disorder, I guess. Coz i realise my eating habit is getting more and more abnormal...

It's still under control....but i dunno how long i can control it...

I learnt not to cling on my friends too tightly coz they will leave me one day. Leave my alone here... But true friends don't =)

 

Strength.

This is what i need the most right now.

 

Be strong and move on.

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It's so true.

When u always live up to others' expectation, being who they wanna u to be, u will get tired soon.

When u suppress everything, one day, u will burst out everything...

 

I am so tired, mentally...

Sometime, i just feel like giving up....

especially when i see no motivation of doing all the things...see no point doing all these things...

i wanna give up badly, badly.

 

It's hard to hold on all the times.

 

=(

 

 

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i'm masked,apparently.

Camouflaging my heart

coz i'm not able to cast away the feelings i have now.

 

Befuddled.

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