人生犹如厕纸，所以，没事不要乱扯

乱扯了，不要以为每一句对不起可以换来一句没关系

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这就是人生， 你能奈他如何？

ASSUMPTION KILLS

it kills me.  kills my heart. kills my trust. 

it just kills everything of me.

it takes away everything of me from u.

it engulfs your brain that u cannot think rationally.

i never know telling what I think about something is considered as back-stabbing.

i never know only me is not allowed to speak out my thoughts.

i never know.

From now on, i will remain solemn n silent.

shut my heart up.

If that's what all of u what. 

i totally skipped November :O

Having a busy life huh.

However, i've managed to survive *Grin*

Here am I. still. alive. Takin deeeep deeeep breath. HAh ! feeeling fresh !!

November. Busy. Why. Assignments lor.

Then nida attend experiments. Den attended workshops. Den went to camp. Den celebrated besties' bdae. Den went to colloquium. Den yumcha whenever i was free. Den read manga like crazy. Den watch anime like nothing else i can do bsides dat. Den like that lor.

Totally utilised my time ! :)

I love my current life from bottom of my heart.

It's busy but i am happy. Probably coz i enjoy my life ? or...i reli grow alot of love to psychology...

That's why. I'm tired but i nvr tot of giving up. I just heart it.

Anyway, it's DECEMBER NOW.

 i still got my finals to go while every frens of mine have done with theirs :C ! * sniff sniff*

i wana finish this exam a.s.a.p.

den have nice n easy break ! and shopping. and sleeping. and lepaking. and yumcha'ing.

i will post a proper post next time,

when i m free. and feel like to do so =P

Don't ask me Am i Okay or Am i alrite when u leave me no choices to choose

x

Don't ask me so many Qs. I might not able to answer. Coz i m not a saint.

What's more I doubt a Saint knows everything.

x

Can u grow up ? or bit a lil more mature ?

x

Can u be honest to urself and to us- ur frens ?

x

Can i have more times for myself so that i can do whatever i like for myself ?

at least for a day ?

x

Can i be irresponsible too ? Coz i need some rest as well.

x

Can i say ' I dunno' at all times and be like u all ?

x

Perhaps. I am being too strict to myself.

Blank.

Just in case u dunno, im undergoing premature midlife crisis :S ( at least datz why i told my frens lar..)

If u dunno wadz midlife crisis, google it by yourself yah. im not goin to explain it here.

Just plain lazy to explain it =/

I got a feeling dat

The more i learnt...the i more i found out i actually, reli, do not know anything.

Knowlegde deprivation ? Oh well, i do crave for knowlegde now...

So that i do not have to crack my encephalone and drain out my CSF all times while there are assignments to be done...( Just in case u do not know again, i like to misuse my psychology knowlegde nowadays ... Don blame me or saying me show off or whatsoever...I jz found some of these terms are extremely expressive. Short n sweet, i would love to put it in this way.)

Oh yah. I have some issues ( not tissues) with one of my frens now...hmm. I do not know how to solve it...well, i should put it in this way : i just don have the courage or energy or whatsoever super power to face it now. and just as lazy as i am, i like to procrastinate.

and i found out,

i am busy hor. I tot itz da same goes to each n every Uni student.

and no, it is not.

My frens who study Biz is so damn free. Kind of jealous such free time nowadays lor.

Coz i have lost mine...

Such is life.

no. shud have said such is my life....

duh. wtheck.

This is how I look like right before exam and assignment due date...

心里突然有着莫名的伤感..

但是，同时，也有莫名的轻松...

今时不同往日了

我不再在乎了...

放下了，真的能走得更远。

We went to 2 different restaurants : Malaysia & HJ Samuri.

Malaysia's one is NiCE !! :)

i love the chicken's satay there. It's well marinated. teeeheee *drool*

It serves Chicken Wing as well but it is not well marinated as its satay. I only tasted the honey sweetness on the outer skin of the chicken wing, but tasted nothing in the meat itself.

1. The peanut sauce comes with the satay makes the satay even tastier :D  2. Otak- otak !! a nice one too !  3. Chicken Wings. So So lor.

Hj's samuri's SUX  * Vomit*

Its beef satay was so hard to bite till my fren just chose to give up biting it and vomitted it out in the toilet =S

Don't go this place. Trust me. Its satay is expensive, and most importantly, it is not nice at all !!
Ban this restaurant from my life 4va lorh =X

•  The end of the satay post  •

Sayonara people !!

It's 2.24am. Time to oii ooiiii. Just bless me wont oversleep tml larh =P

I always need to sleep more. I'm sleep deprived. Bla.Like hell no one knows =/

Look at my dark circles below my eyes. It is getting darker day by day. Rmb once i was in Sasa and looking for concealer, but the Sasa Beauty counsultant recommended me some sort of eye gel to reduce my dark circles instead of concealer.

Coz she said, there is NO CONCEALER that ables to conceal my dark circles T___________T

.   .   .

In fact, i can always opt to sleep earlier.

But, if i sleep earlier, i cannot finish my works. To solve this dilemma, i gotta reduce my outings which is impossible larh. ( siao meh. don't go out. I will bored to max weih)

So, in my case, it's sort of dai ngor sei o.O

.   .   .

And trust me. I hate myself for blogging here coz it takes away my sleeping time even more.

Yet, i love to blog whenever i tend to run away from the works i have :D

De-stress kononnya.

.   .   .

I have an adrupt thought such as wishing myself is in my Year 3. doing last sem already.

Coz, i started to sense all the coming works will be heavier and heavier...

*Breathes*

I can do it !!

Yah yah, stop whining mar. I know. Save all the complaining energy for my works mar.

So i mai stop it now lor. Bleh.

Chao to my works now. No more procrastination. Hopefully.

The picture is telling :: You've been hurt, but that doesnt mean u r not able to fly again.

and i love this alot. Impactful to my heart :)

受伤了，还是能继续飞的。

加油啊。

Geez. Time flies huh. All the assignments started to haunt me day in and day out adi =X

1st weeK: Still very dak han one. Sumore got extra time to be bullied by people =l

Look at my hand...=( Those ppl who think they are so artistic drew one. Poor me this lil gal who is just vulnerable ...

2nd week: Started to oversleep again. Heheheheh. Okay. Shudn't hee. It's not sthg i shud proud of =P

Took photo while driving. Sky is what i love the most :)

Dunno since when... i just have the habit of taking photo of Sky.

3rd Week: Started to be busyyyyy liao. Wuuu T.T

Seeeee what i did during class. Origami. Hehe. To release streeeeeesss kononnya =P

and seeeee my classmate !! Sleeeppppp. Uh-Ohh. Bad student =X

and for past 3 weeks and i m sure for coming weeks too, i'll have to face such traffic jam just outside the mainblock EVERY MORNINGG... Sienzzzz !!

And this is what I did in Career Guidance's class :) Drawinggg ~ Whee~ And the title is :: My IDEAL college.

Well, it's actually  a personality test which named as Leonard Personality Inventory.

This picture ( with Ms.Yeo's analysis + Explaination) has showed me a vvvvvvvvvvvery creative person. In fact, I am too creative to the extend of talking nonsense alottttt. Hehe. I found this so true larh :D So, frens, bear with me if i crap alott. This is just my personality, nothing much I can do about it nor i wanna do sthg about it. Woohooo =P

i'm proud to be who i wanna be right now.

4th week :: time to kemaskan my mood for all the coming assignments' due dates and tests !

Ganbatte ! To me, and to everyone * winkz*

Anyway, Selamat Hari Raya ~~ Wheee~~

Holidaysssss are here !! though oni 2 days nia...damn potong steam =/

How ya guys spend these 2 days of holiday?

Me leh. Went to Genting with my whole extended family. Heh.

This is my cousin, Zee, and Yan.

Poor us. For goodness's sake, we are both underage and thus...

we were left behind by our papa and mama and cousins n their bf and their gf who went to Casino..

End up. We 2 lepak-ed in Genting. Shopped Around. But good also lar. I bought new shirt again. heh.

p/s: I saw a shirt with a print writing :: I'm surrounded by Idiots. ! Gosh. I love this alottt and would love to buy it !! But, provided i got money again la =X

Also, we managed to squeeze ourselves out to First World and enjoyed a 1o-minute long Bunga Api!

Sigh. I dunno why I DIDN'T BRING MY CAMMIE ALONG !

=(

Only managed to take such a lousy picture of Bunga Api... These bunga api reli darn nice oneeee..

I like the one will pop out with Flying Bird shape one especially.

But, too bad, my fon with oni 2.0 mega pixels and damn slow shutter speed is not able to capture such a short, yet memerizing moment :(

Sad Case larh.

Tapi, tak apa larh...i have them all in my brain :D Come and Disect my brain if u wanna to see the bunga api !

Also, i tak berapa suka Genting liao...Damn. It's full of Seafoooood =S

Love your family more coz they are who God provides and preserve for ya :)

You're unable to go anywhere without them.

Never ever.

Yahhh

I WANNA GIVE UP ON YOU,HATRED.

I WANNA AND GONNA GIVE UP ON YOU.

COZ YOU MADE ME REAL TIRED :(

AND BRING NO GOOD TO ME

YOU HAVE BEEN HAUNTING ME FOR SO LONG

SO I'VE DECIDED

TO LET GO OF YOU

I KNOW IT'S NOT EASY.

BUT I WILL DO MY BEST TO LET GO OF U.

MAY PEACE, I MEAN, MORE PEACE COMES TO MY LIFE =)

and, only peace that i wanna embrace for life !

Sistahs for life ! * GRIN*

i have been thinking alot these 2 days. And i realise, my recent life revolves around my close frens alot.

Everywhere i go and everything i do will remind me of my dear friends.

KFC will remind me of how much JY hates it and how he fall asleep after seeing its ad in cinema.

Aman Puri Ramlee Burger will remind me of how me n js n wq da bao it den went to wq's casa after it...

then we ate it while chatting 2geda throughout the whole nite.

Cinema will remind me of how were we watching movies 2geda :) It has been a long time since all of us watched movie together though :(

To be frank, i miss that kind of feeling lar.

There are too many memories are recalled back on my mind now.

They are so nostalgic and sweet to me right now...

Our gang is splitting as all of us started to head to our life goals.

But,  by fate, i believe we will have reunion again someday.

At time being, lets work hard 2geda to achieve what we want :)

vix, hc, sheena, me

We have been enduring alot of hardships 2geda...and now,i hope we still can do same 2geda in the future !

Guys. Err...aka future engineers and accountants ! :)

OKay. My frens in my gang mostly are guys. Thanks to them , i know to play L4D =P

and bobo is my sifu of L4D ><

Because of them,

I have my interesting life =]

I am so grateful and thankful for having them as my friends.

Without them, i m not who I am right now *winks*

and i m so regret over ffk-ed them.

There are times i take them for granted.

I thought we still got lots of time

I thought they are always will be here

I thought it is okay to ffk la, still got nex week la.

But now

i just realise, it is not like that.

And i only realise when one of the frens has to leave us for study now...

I just realise

We don't have much time.

Truly have to appreciate every moments that we can have with our friends now.

I don wanna hv such a regret again.

I got this poem from ek...

天地之间，好友相聚              送别熟悉，迎面新境

下肚之酒，使愁更愁。            君子回头，旧景一览。

无言之际，言藏与心              千感交汇，不及所融

不知何时，能聚于此              里藏不舍，叹感于气。

散洒天下，以圆宏志。            终此之意，肩上职责

之所以然，离别尽伤              须汝明之，持之扶之。

宴席将尽，离别之刻              一心决意，无用改之

席位如常，待友聚之。            别离旧途，启程新道。

thanks for sharing it with me when i m so down....=)

I have been neglecting my friends for weeks.

I ffk-ed them alot, especially Vickz.

Reason ?

Working and doing famine stuff lo.

Everytime they ask me to go out...

I checked my organiser and it is empty on that day.

So i said ON larh.

But it owaiz ended up either i spent my days in office, or at home doing my stuff,

or simply too tired to go out.

And once again, i ffk-ed them.

It has been weeks i didnt go out for yumcha lo.

Especially in August. Not free for every weekends.

=(

Sorry larh my friends.

Sorry.

My life will become normal again after this.

From today onwards, I'll adjust my life again.

And no more ffk. I promise ...=)

and i miss you guys badly ;(

A month later, here i am, still talking about it ! =)

Finally, it ended ! *robust applause*

and here comes my HOLIDAY xD

And most importantly, all of our hard works paid off.

=)

 I learnt alot throughout the whole event, from the process of preparing it til running this event.

It is never easy. Never ever easy.

But, we managed to make it a success with all the commitment, co-operation and hard works from everyone of the committees, volunteers as well as campers.

Thank you !

for all of u who made a difference to my life :)

and, welcome, my 2nd sem !

Welllllll. Yea. Personal Assistant of my boss sound cool. But, the actual workload is not cool at all ==

In the beginning, i've had very easy going days... Spent my time in facebook'ing in the office, or sitting at the sofa, doing nothing but daydreaming throughout the whole day... It's quite dull and boring. Sometime, i just wonder why my boss wanna hire me...

But now, i know it already. The works are coming in one by one at the same time...Dealing with all the unfamiliar things such as applying for franchising license and business license stressed me out totally...and, at the same time, i have to be replacement teacher ( P/s: i work in tuition centre)... Life is getting harder now =(  Nevermind, it's a very good experience anyway :)

And, i have been thinking, can i really be a good teacher ?

i'm concerned and worried about it...i dunno whether my teaching method is correct or effective or not...what if it is ineffective ? Those kids' future is at stake. Sigh. I don wanna ruin all these kids' future.... that's why... i m scared...i dunno what i m doing now is correct or wrong.... i dunno how exactly should i do...i dunno...

Moreover, sometimes, all these kids are so noisy and naughty that it gonna drive me mad ! I didn't scold, didn't cane them though.. coz i don think it's the best to solve this issue...what i did is...i set rules with them and play along the rules with them. Well, they do behave better now. But, i dunno how long it can last...

What should i do ?

Sigh, I should not be a teacher...=(