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When's the last time i blogged in mandarin ah ?

Aiyar just forget about it. Just don't feel like writing anything in mandarin now.

Past few days...

i've a turbulent change in my mood as if i got the Bipolor Disorder ==

And, i learnt alot. About my friends. About myself. About my limitations. About my weaknesses.

I'm not a saint, not Lord who can grant everyone what they wish for.

I'm an attention seeker. I need attentions. I need cares. I need the feeling of being cared. I need it badly,badly.

I am not as tough as I think I am.

I am still such a baby who like to cry when problems arise. As if crying can resolve the problems. HA !

I feel helpless when there's no one beside me... Coz i m afraid of loneliness...

I need to learn to be firm in someways.

I need to learn to tolerate more.

I need to learn be more patience.

Goodness...there are alot more for me learn just to be a better human being...When can I be a better human?

I hate to hurt myself, and my close ones. But I do it quite often nowadays =( which make me feel worse.

I start to devolop eating disorder, I guess. Coz i realise my eating habit is getting more and more abnormal...

It's still under control....but i dunno how long i can control it...

I learnt not to cling on my friends too tightly coz they will leave me one day. Leave my alone here... But true friends don't =)

Strength.

This is what i need the most right now.

Be strong and move on.