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Ahh. i was back from Pulau Redang yesterday.

ermm...guess i will upload some photos and talk about it more once i get back my memory card =)

it was a blast. so to speak.

To be honest, i didnt enjoy as much as i expect i will. It's not that is not fun...it's just that it is not fun enuff for me. i nida sth more exiciting, wilder to make myself get high. Plus, it was my 3rd time on a trip to Pulau Redang...so i am sorta know wadz da activities there, which snorkelling spots that we were heading to...so, it is no longer a surprise to me.

Aww well. i did have some improvement thou. For the 1st time, i snorkelled without the help of pelampung or da divers there...lol...no longer fear of the water or dunno how to swim. Since i have life jacket, so i just put all my trusts on it, and brace myself for the snorkelling.

On the way back to KL...deng wyatt who called ptee abt da release of result == !! This news made all of us almost got mad in the bus. Well, mayb not all of us, it's MEEEEE. i was nervous back then. Damn nervous...extremely worried about my Malaysian studies...yet...none of us know about our Malaysian studies grade yet...DANG !! Hopefully i didnt fail that shitty paper.

Well, about my results...it actually is very good. But...i don't reli feel happy for it.

Coz no matter how good i can get for my results, there choices i have are still the same. Better results only make me struggle more, struggle more n more just to get more unrealistic choices for myself... ...

i hate this kind of feeling which make me so vulnerable.

Ahh. i am tarnised by myself right now.

don wanna give uppp.Wanna the best for myself...