: *: 欣 声 : * :

说实在的

这是我第一次觉得心理学的考试很难考

处处感到压力一直在压迫者自己

心脏一直加速，加速，加速，为了让身体得到足够的氧气

我一直，一直深呼吸，就好像担心自己会随时喘不过气，随时离开人间 =.=|||

笨蛋压力

你可以走开吗

我只想考好我的考试，为什么你就是喜欢缠着我

噎！

This is how I look like right before exam and assignment due date...

I always need to sleep more. I'm sleep deprived. Bla.Like hell no one knows =/

Look at my dark circles below my eyes. It is getting darker day by day. Rmb once i was in Sasa and looking for concealer, but the Sasa Beauty counsultant recommended me some sort of eye gel to reduce my dark circles instead of concealer.

Coz she said, there is NO CONCEALER that ables to conceal my dark circles T___________T

.   .   .

In fact, i can always opt to sleep earlier.

But, if i sleep earlier, i cannot finish my works. To solve this dilemma, i gotta reduce my outings which is impossible larh. ( siao meh. don't go out. I will bored to max weih)

So, in my case, it's sort of dai ngor sei o.O

.   .   .

And trust me. I hate myself for blogging here coz it takes away my sleeping time even more.

Yet, i love to blog whenever i tend to run away from the works i have :D

De-stress kononnya.

.   .   .

I have an adrupt thought such as wishing myself is in my Year 3. doing last sem already.

Coz, i started to sense all the coming works will be heavier and heavier...

*Breathes*

I can do it !!

Yah yah, stop whining mar. I know. Save all the complaining energy for my works mar.

So i mai stop it now lor. Bleh.

Chao to my works now. No more procrastination. Hopefully.

It's going to be my 4th week of 2nd Sem.

Geez. Time flies huh. All the assignments started to haunt me day in and day out adi =X

1st weeK: Still very dak han one. Sumore got extra time to be bullied by people =l

Look at my hand...=( Those ppl who think they are so artistic drew one. Poor me this lil gal who is just vulnerable ...

2nd week: Started to oversleep again. Heheheheh. Okay. Shudn't hee. It's not sthg i shud proud of =P

Took photo while driving. Sky is what i love the most :)

Dunno since when... i just have the habit of taking photo of Sky.

3rd Week: Started to be busyyyyy liao. Wuuu T.T

Seeeee what i did during class. Origami. Hehe. To release streeeeeesss kononnya =P

and seeeee my classmate !! Sleeeppppp. Uh-Ohh. Bad student =X

and for past 3 weeks and i m sure for coming weeks too, i'll have to face such traffic jam just outside the mainblock EVERY MORNINGG... Sienzzzz !!

And this is what I did in Career Guidance's class :) Drawinggg ~ Whee~ And the title is :: My IDEAL college.

Well, it's actually  a personality test which named as Leonard Personality Inventory.

This picture ( with Ms.Yeo's analysis + Explaination) has showed me a vvvvvvvvvvvery creative person. In fact, I am too creative to the extend of talking nonsense alottttt. Hehe. I found this so true larh :D So, frens, bear with me if i crap alott. This is just my personality, nothing much I can do about it nor i wanna do sthg about it. Woohooo =P

i'm proud to be who i wanna be right now.

4th week :: time to kemaskan my mood for all the coming assignments' due dates and tests !

Ganbatte ! To me, and to everyone * winkz*

A month ago, i posted about 30-hour Famine camp.

A month later, here i am, still talking about it ! =)

Finally, it ended ! *robust applause*

and here comes my HOLIDAY xD

And most importantly, all of our hard works paid off.

=)

 I learnt alot throughout the whole event, from the process of preparing it til running this event.

It is never easy. Never ever easy.

But, we managed to make it a success with all the commitment, co-operation and hard works from everyone of the committees, volunteers as well as campers.

Thank you !

for all of u who made a difference to my life :)

and, welcome, my 2nd sem !

Just found out, i haven't written anything about 30-hour famine of this year properly...:P

Anyone is interested in it ???

ARE U ARE U ARE  U??

COme la come la come la. JOin la JOin la Join la. Have fun together ma :)

We are part of the committeeessssss this year =)

Some friends asked me.

Why I join it ? 30 hour din eat. Gam fei?

Sorry my frens. Empty ur tummy for 30 hours cant gam fei one :) though i hope it can ...><

I join, because, i think this is what i can do to help people who in needs currently. I just do what i can do. That's all.

And, I hope more people can join it. Believe it or not. Ur lil sacrification can bring a great difference to others life :) That's the paradigm i m holding on to now. And that's why i join it .

Then they asked sumore. Y i wanna b committee leh. Cari pasal saja...><

Hmmmmmm. I wanna say that is exactly WHY i wanna be committee. If everyone oso takut pasal, hey, who gonna take the initiatives in making a change and contribute to this society ?

I just happened to be there, to be one of them who run this event. And, I'm so glad I am so in it now !

And then horh. When i ask my frens to join. Normally, the first reaction will be :: I CANNOT DONT EAT FOR 30 hours !

My friends. U know how sam fu not to eat for 30 hours. So, I'm so sure you can understand people who didnt eat more than 30 hours are even more sam fu, right ? That's why we are here, doing this, with a hope that we are able to reduce their sam-fu-ness. How about you ? =)

Then , then...some of them are hesitating now. Thinking should join or not. Yet, they worry they can't raise fund up to RM80.

Sigh... U not even start to raise the fund...how u know u cannot do it ? Never try, never know =) Just do your best and i m sure you can reach the target as long as you have the will to do it. Don't you think so? =)

What else i can talk about it...
Hmmmm. Just join it larh :)

We join it is not just for fun, but for the meaning behind the event .

Learn more about it at http://worldvision.com.my/famine2009/

We are waiting for you.

And we believe all of us got the power to change the world into a better one together.

=)

After wearing this black robe, i am officially a Uni student =)

yeng leh... but the next time i wear it will b during my graduation,which 3 years later...ishh...hopefully i am still alive and mentally healthy after years of tortures ><

My class had started for 3 weeks so far...start to be busy right now.
Assignment is bombarding us one by one. Sigh. It's the very start of journey yet it's not ec adi..

Bless all of us. DOn b psycho jz coz v study psychology.

Damn it. i looked so retarded. Grrrrr ;(

今天开会时候，我静静地，偷偷地留意学长们的眼睛

发觉，大家的黑眼圈都很大，很严重。

我想，2年后，我会和他们一样=（

Have had a ...kinda relaxing class today =S

watched video clip and drama for both of my classes 2day...

haha. yea itz so easy so relaxing to watch all these videos...

but itz hard to understand the concepts of money from the video 0.0

hell. MISS LIM !!! I PREFER U TEACH ME THAN GIMME VIDEO TO WATCH ARR !

aiks...no matter how much i shouted here, she just can't hear it...any1 can pass my msg to her??

btw i enjoy the Criminal MInd <3

datz y i like what i am doing now

i am sure that i din choose the wrong path.

I am so sure.

oHHH!!!

one thing i must mention here...

hey fucktard out there ! can u plz park your car at the correct spot so that everyone of us cant save ourselves from scratching anyone's car?

i din scratch anyone's car 2day anyway. don misunderstand it.

just that...i took a kinda long time to come out from parking slot ==

Luckily got a few guys offered their helps so lengzai-ly. haha. i managed to get my car out without hurting any cars *winkz*

thanks to those fucktards. i have polluted the world even more by wasting the finite resource of the world on getting my car out the parking place ><

SOrry mother nature. i don mean it and itz not my fault.

PLz Punish those people for the future's sake.

A-men.

p/s  :: if i encouter this kind of problems again, im gonna ask for the authority's help to clamp dat fella's car !!

I am sure that i am

Undergoing anxiety this week.

Temporary one though.

Coz of quizes, assignments, and presentations which due in ds two weeks

Symptoms::

Fatigued

Worrying

Can't concentrate

and a feel of.... binge eating

( yea...im sorta weird..usually people tend to lose appetite while dealing stress. but i tend to eat a lot more.

but

i am controlling myself. Yea. Gam fei marh. )

Treatment for Myself ::

Sleep more and more and more and more and alot more

Going out.

Hell yea...going out. Forget about the jobs in hand. I simply need to shout at the top of my lungs now =S

Uhh- oHh

i sound so crazy again.

No worries

I am fine, just having a lil stress now >m<

and please bear with my mood swings. Thanks.

went to monash today.

when on the way go there...i actually imagined how Monash looks like...coz u know...i nvr saw a normal UNi like what  i have seen on tv when i was small.....my current Uni ar...haha....suan liao larh. u wont know there is a Uni if no one tells u it is a Uni coz itz located in between all big companies and somehow looks like office more than Uni. and before Monash, another university college dat i have been before is Taylors which its look as same as HELP la,macam abang adik, except itz surrounded by all mouth-watering food...Actually i am glad dat i din choose Taylors at da very beginning coz i m sure i cant resist those tempting luring food at there...haha...

Still...monash...

i expect there is alot of TREES (aiyar jz overall looks GREEN la)...and sunshine boys =D and a big basketball court or football field...there are lots of guys playing balls and gals cheering at da side. Den suddenly a ball accidentally hit me...den a guy with apologetic face comes to me...at 1st i tot of screwing him up, but,when i scrutinaze his face...WAAA is my response coz he is soooo handsome so cute so sunshine >< *blush... he keeps saying sorry to me but i just cant give any normal responses but smile n say itz ok =) den he runs back to his frens...and i continue my journey. I walk to admin there...to ask abt my course of coz.not check his name out =P   When i come out...i see him is leaning on the door with a shy yet cute face...haha...and he sees me too. Da atmosphere is intensed with awkward yet happy yet weird yet full of happiness feeling...

PAK ! * a slap on myself to make myself wake up* where got such romantic occurance in real world de larh..

and da truth is...there is no students at Monash now...whole uni looks like a dumped city, so dead. No cheering no shouting no laughin no oooh no ahhhh no boys no gals. UGGGHHH. coz they are having holiday... obviously i hav chosen a wrong date to gap zai larh....deng deng deng...

and monash is not as big as i imagined. not as nice as i imagined...itz not very big nia...but overall itz ok lorh. I like da library though. Biggest ever library dat i have seen among UniS..haha...poor lil HELP library reli cant compare with it larh....btw da fees are even more beautiful...nid ard rm30K per year for my course...yep per year....one sem nid ard rm15K...zzz...effing expensive larh ! i can finish my course in TAR for less than rm30K larh deng !

i don think i will further my study there lar...even i want...i will oni credit transfer to Monash for my 3rd year n itz bcoz i want its certs not itz programme.

oh yea.  i wana study pyschology for my degree course. Any suggestions of which UNi is good for it? except HELP, monash , TAR, segi.. Wher else offer psychology in Malaysia?

昨天，和某位朋友谈天...平时我没和他多谈，但是昨天觉得他好像承受着很大的压力...所以就和他聊一聊吧。我很老实地告诉他，我没能帮他些什么，但是，假如他不介意，我能当他的聆听者。

可是，到最后，我们可说是不欢而散。不管他有没有读我的博文，我就是要说 ！ 要写 ！我们不欢而散的原因。我不管你喜不喜欢，在不在乎，我就是要写出来。但是，我不会透露他是谁，什么名字。这是我给他的最后尊敬。

.   .   .

我们的对话内容大致上是关于他的压力。

他说他的压力很大。中考考不好。assignments 很多。

我说...当然我没可能说midterm 而已，没关系啦。我绝对不会说这样的话。因为，我也很在乎我的midterm 的。假如我们对换立场，我的midterm 考不好，我也会很不开心的。

我说，midterm 已经考完了，一切都成定局了。即使你在怎样在乎，不开心，失望，你是改变不了midterm 的成绩了。为什么不尝试这个星期找朋友出去走走，喝喝茶，谈谈天，疏解了压力，才继续前进？

他：　～．～　（对，这就是他给我的回应）

他说ａｓｓｉｇｎｍｅｎｔ　很多，很烦。

我说以他现在的情绪根本无法好好地做ａｓｓｉｇｎｍｅｎｔｓ．．．真的，在周末出去走走，真的会好很多。到时再做ａｓｓｉｇｎｍｅｎｔ吧．．．

结果，他回我 ： wtf u tot foundation n degree is the same meh ...   i 3rd sem stress free de lorh... u stress wad stress...

ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHH !

i super duper beh song Mr.Alex now o !!!

out of so many groups, he picked my group to adopt a black for assignment.

If we don't adopt, he is goin to split my group.

Ohh Gosh

i am selfish when comes to assignment. I don't like to mix join ppl dat i duno o im not close with.

I reli reli reli don like it...

but terpaksa lar. v ''adopt'' him.

Hope he's fine o co-operative larh.

If he don't, nvm la. we will do all da things. All he needs to do is memorise da script.

That's all.

I m not gonna let him affect our overall performance.

No way he can affect my future.

btw...i don like blacks due to my personal experiences larh...i m not racist at 1st

but now, i truly am.

. . .

and and and...

my msia studies punyer lecturer truly is a f**ker.

how dare she askes us to do her stuff?

She got healthy bars to sell n i think no one wana buy her products la..

so she askes us, the students who need marks from her, disguise ourselves as merchant n fon discributor to ask wherther da company is interested in distributing her healthy bar anot.....if da company is interested, we have to give her that particular company's numbers. WTH is dat !? if v do so, she will give us extra 2 marks.

GO TO HELL MANNNN ! im not gonna betray myself for that 2 marks.

ONI 2 marks i reli DONT MIND !!

obviously she is abusing us lar in the line of lecturer name...shit her.

n she thinks we will not sense it???

OMG. hey ! we are college-educated student.

We got brain.

At least it's still functioning n not yet polluted by corroption or bribe lar.

what sort of lecturer is dat?????

i can't imagine the future if all lecterurs behave like she does.

YEAAh ~

start my 3rd sem tmr <3

i think i can enjoy 3rd sem...coz finally i study da subject dat i like n interested in...

hehe. * im thrilled ^^ *

and, it's my last sem as foundation student.

i wanna utilise the remaining time as HMC student. yea. no regrets.

only sweet memories will do =)

i wana make 19-year-old year the sweetest year in my life so far !

time reli pass like no body business.

i'm scared. am worried of the future.

but, i will keep on moving. with all the guts i have.

could somebody gimme a permission to shout out a GIANT F word???

ARGH. it's so crappy! Traffic jam took me more than an hour to reach home from college. and hell i gotta go thru these for 2 more months. im very BEH SONG Ahh! y msia traffic is so......argh.i duno how to describe anymore.

bless me anyway.

Hope my patience can tahan for 2 more months for such traffic condition.

Where and what do you see yourself in 5 years time?

GOOD Q mannn.
i got this topic for my critical thinking skill oral presentation

T.T

it was da oni Q dat i don hope to get amid all topics
when i was throwing da dice, i oni wished to not to kena da NO.1 and im okie with any other Qs
yet
DANG DANG * drumming*
this is wad i get.
（￣３￣＃）凸

blaming my luck larh!

someone please helpme to think.think.think .
i reli hav no ideas on what am i goin to tellllllll

ARGGHH.
in 5 years time, i maybe become the ambassodor of Marie France bodyline
can i say lidat ? 
><

or as what baby've said
i marry a rich man and spend the time on planning how to kill him for money's sake
? 

p/s::   college life nowadays reli giv me a big DAMN!
pp/s::  i used to love puasa month while i was in high skul.but not now anymore.coz da traffic is so jam while im on my home due to employees can go home earlier now.

我在第2 学期读的科目：

(1) Advanced English
我觉得....我现在有一个很好的英文老师 =）
她很有耐性！ 也教很多。嘻嘻嘻。这个学期阿...我不会放过她了。一旦我在英文上面对任何问题，一定问她 9 9 xD
然后，她说：ｗａｔｃｈｉｎｇ　ｃｈｉｎｅｓｅ　ｏｒ　ＨＫ  ｄｒａｍａｓ　ｉｓ　ａ　ｗａｓｔａｇｅ　ｏｆ　ｔｉｍｅ．　Ｔｈｅ　ｓｔｏｒｙ　ｐｌｏｔｓ　ａｒｅ　ｓｉｌｌｙ．　Ａｓ　ａ　ｓｔｕｄｅｎｔ，　ｕ　ｓｈｕｄｎ＇ｔ　ｗａｓｔｅ　ａｎｙ　ｔｉｍｅ　ｏｎ　ｉｔ．　Ｕ　ｓｈｕｄ　ｗａtch  English ＴＶ　ｎｅｗｓ to pick up ur English and listening skill!!!

娃哈哈哈哈哈！！ 终于，有人和我一样，不喜欢看港剧！ anti 家好月圆！！！ blueeeks =P


(2) critical thinking skill

><  我的lecturer...是 ms.chris,公认全foundation 最凶的老师。可是阿，我觉得她很好。
还有阿...其实...她也蛮搞笑的  =D

cts 学什么的阿?
学怎样充分使用你的头脑咯~~ lol!
现在我们学着 lateral thinking =)  一题简单的问题可以使我们绞尽脑汁来想答案的。hmm。可是，很好玩阿。
当做类似的问题时，一定要不停提醒自己，THINK OUT　ＯＦ　ＴＨＥ BOX !

(3) introduction to business principles
ok ok la. so far...我知道自己是 Generation Y 咯~ <3

（4）accouting princples
这一科，让我终于知道和发现，原来 HELP 什么都贵，除了课本。
现在， accouting 的课本 暂时缺货，可是，我们却很需要它来做功课。于是呢，我的朋友到外面的书局找那本课本...
结果呢，在help 是rm75售价的课本，在外面却变成了rm190  @.@
所以，我宁愿这两个星期买不到课本，向朋友借课本，也不要在外面买课本。
我也不买复印的。嘻嘻。 我支持正版，支持 HELP　Ｘｐ

哇。好久没写部落格了，收视率降低了蛮多  > <

这两个星期，我去了马六甲一趟 （迟些才插入照片）， 参加了饥饿30 营， 然后...第2 学期开始了T.T


我真的，还没进入学习状态。整个人还是懒洋洋的，什么都不想做，只想睡觉。
看到新的时间表，真的讨厌极了。虽然星期五不用上课，可是，我的时间表排到很密。

最讨厌lan ，笨蛋道德 ....要上课的mehhhhh!!??浪费钱，浪费时间。 人的品德，不是单靠3 个月的道德科就可以塑成的。拜托他们用下脑啦....那么盼望人民有道德，效忠于国家，那他们就应该以身作则，作个好榜样啦。

每当上完道德课时已是6.30 了...惨某，很塞车！！ 叹气！

阿啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！

stupid！stupid ! stupid LAN!

第一天上课的感觉很奇怪。
一开门， 眼前尽是不认识的同学。
我想念我上个学期的同学啦 =（

我喜欢，一开门，可以和朋友互相说声早安，而不是凝视。
我喜欢，一休息，大家一起谈天说地吃东西，而不是各走各的路。

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！
快点消失啦！  我不喜欢这些感觉。我喜欢自在一点啊。

算啦。今天暂时写到这里。
明天再继续。

太多想写，可是不懂从何写起。
太多想表达，可是不知道该如表达。

Final is coming.
WOOHOOO~ SEM BREAK IS COMING TOO.kakaakak XD
*ANGELINE, JOSHUA :: dat 2 lines are specially wrote for u two to read =) hahaha...following will be most in mandarin =P *

考试，考试，考试，又要考试了
其实，我很兴奋，嘻嘻 =D 还蛮期待它的到来
因为辛苦一番后，就有漂亮的5个星期假期。爽阿~！
所谓先苦后甜，也许就是这样的意思。 * 猛点头'ing *

Sem 1 结束了
这4 个月，我认识了不少人，也接触更多不同性格的人
有些人，的确很好
有些人，很虚伪
我有说，有笑，几乎天天疯疯癫癫的过日子 ><
Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.

过完这个sem,我想忘记一切不愉快。
我会忘记我现在不喜欢的那个人的所作所为。希望，下个sem我还能将她当朋友来看待。
Forget issues of the past.  Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
* yea.i don wan to ruin my happiness. *
Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.


我想活得简单点。
讨厌勾心斗角。特别是与常在我身边的人。

还有，谢谢那些参加饥饿30的朋友。
你们帮的，支持的，不是我啊，而是那些身在极度贫穷的孩子。
我相信他们也会很感激你们的帮助 = )
继续加油！
为了，未来。

finally,finish my oral presentation.
DEEP BREATH. and WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~~
OMG.im darn happy happy happy!

ms chris actually giv us 2 months, o roughly 10 weeks to prepare d oral presentation.
but,who da hell will so early n sooo obedient to prepare it so fast de lehhhhhh.
end up,i started to write my script at 11pm >< 9 hours b4 da my oral presentation.
yea.LAST MINS WORK. AGAIN. SIGH.
i have this habit since small...but i don want to change it so far =P
i tink it's actualy not so bad,lolx,coz  oni last  mins can make me pay full attention on my stuff =/

i duno how's my presentation.
but i tink it'll be OK guaaaa.at least, there are responses from my classmates n Ms Chris.
hehehehe.esp when im telling HOW U EAT PROVIDEs THE CLUE AS HOW U ENJOY SEX. LOLX!
well,everyone seems very sensitive to SEX ds word,regardless how old u are.

It's MEEEE! haha. presenting Face Reading.
but...coz of ds presentation, edwin "asked" me becareful,lol,for presenting his photo for so long.
aiyarr.....my body covered piek tee photo liao tim ~~ WASTED! (> 皿<)


- grace, yin hong , tshui mum, cyan , edwin -
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